strong and silent yet weak inside

another disappointing day

2007-06-09T01:42:00.000+08:00

Another "class outing", another disappointment.. When will this end? How can something that generated so much activity in our world turn out to be such insignificant to the same bunch of ppl.

As usual, many ppl called for OTHERS to organize an outing and though its the uni holidays, most of the work still fell on the usual suspects. Y?

The result? 8 ppl turn up, out of which 7 guys and 1 gal, who was the one who initiated the outing and did her best to help out. THANX =) Looking at the number of gals realli sadden me.. they are supposedly more free on a fri evening, compared to guys who juz booked out at 6.. and none of the girls stationed locally was there.. I realli have to say this..

BULLS**T

Talk is cheap. dun commit urself if you cannot.get out of this chat.full stop.there's nothing much to say.

the nore i tik of it, the more pissed i am... so shall not tok bt it anymore.. hmph

Elloz! Yoz! Heyz! Hiz!

2007-03-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hee(b4 i start.. shall begin with the best news over the wkend.. LIVERPOOL 0 MAN U 1)

Hey ppl!! It's been such a LONG time.. yup.. LONG (definitely more than 21km). Now that I've commissioned, i suddenly feel that i've so much free time. Well, u c, unlike many others, i was fortunate to be granted the chance to stay out (all thanks to my S4), and also, my camp is juz 10 min bus ride away =) after some delibration, i've decided to revive this blog (starting 050307)...

It's been a memorable 1 month, erm.. to be exact, 17 days in SOL (school of logistics). u c... i was selected to attend this course called 56th ULOC (unit logistics officer course) and yes.. i'm a loggy for those of u tt dunoe, but i shall tok more bt wat a loggy means to me nxt time. All was not well rite from the start...

i was only told on 060207 tt i'm attending the course, starting 070206. tt got me quite panicky coz my superior were all overseas n i had to give HQ a reply b4 5 tt day but fortunately, i manage to contact them =) n wat a course it turned out to be!

we were first divided into different syndicates and i was in syndicate 1! Here r its grp members... (NSmen first) Robin, Wai Boon, William, Benjamin, Derrek, Jimmy, Rosni, joseph ANG, (the NSF) Daniel n me. we did many discussions, n many exercises, all to do with developing plans n so, it should have been mentally draining, but it was not at all!!

These grp of NSmen r very garang, efficient n took great care of daniel n me (they treated us to prata, drinnks, lunch n lou hei!). hee..i'll nv forget this bunch of ppl!! n i muz oso not forget joseph SEAH, who drove me to camp in his BMW everyday!! Hee.. n so i dun have to wake up so early everyday. in this way i got another 1/2h of sleep everyday. THANX!! (but i have to admit it was quite scary AT FIRST taking his car).

so my advice now is.. if u have the chance.. GO FOR MORE EXERCISE WITH THE NSMEN!! u rock!!

as for now, i'll have to head back to work tml n start doin work le.. till nxt time.. CYA!!

troubled...

2005-08-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

Life juz likes to make a fool out of me.. repeating itself ever so often.. it's like i'm living my life all over again.. am feeling.. somewat lost.. lonely

had a troubled 2 weeks.. troubled by a person.. juz can't stand the attitude of tt person.. seems like we can't tok any longer.. like talking to me is worse then killing u.. makes me tik if we ever can be friends again.. asked a close friend of tt person who suggested tt it's bcoz of all the stupid things ppl said!! getting real sick n tired of this episode.. somehow, i juz wanna runaway n nv face u again.. *cold hard stare*

shall realli avoid e prob n start focusin on othe stuff..

shall not tok bt it anymore.. shall not communicate till i sort things out..

my attitude towards u is a reflection of urs toward mine..

"not to perfect the past but to work for a better future" this is something that i learnt at bp today from a brigadier general .. first time seeing a BG live in person.. come to tik bt it.. how many ppl will realli get to tok to a BG.. haha. so proud today.. parade at bp was fine.. no wet weather.. bpian spirit is better than ever.. bpians cheering n singing together as 1 family.. felt so warm.. haiz,, but didn get to take foto with the BG.. sad..

perhaps the BG's words can be applied here. ur attitude towards me is a thing of the past.. no point tiking of y or how this came abt.. juz learn to live with it.. someday.. maybe someday i will find an ans..

my stupid life..

2005-07-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

late for school for the first time ever in my life.. stupid tree.. bomb it!! can't believe my rotten luck. bee boarding stupid 67 buses throughout the year.. 2 broke down and 1 got caught in a jam.. wat nxt.. ah!! saw another 67 tt broke down on the way home.. will my luck with 67 ever change..

J2s are turning muggers!! first time seeing the rain tree 3/4 filled with ppl mugging!! HELP!! stress levels up a notch!! do conduct a chi-square test on whether stress level is dependent on peer pressure please..

feeling worse than ever in gp nowadays!! realli need to tok to rattna.. howeva her name is spelt.. but first muz not let her suan me anymore.. NO MORE SLEEPING IN GP bab... it's sleep vs scholarship.. CHOOSE!!

focus bab focus.. work work!! let's convert more stored chemical energy to other forms of energy.. but first.. i needa replenish the energy lost..

realli need to tok to someone.. but who??

Zpop

2005-07-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

ah..wat a way to spend my day ydae.. waking up early from a late nite.. n slackin whole day thru.. in e end didn even touch my gp compo.. gonna get murdered soon..

ydae went Zpop.. actually wanted to go causeway pasar malam first to get something for the new pres.. haha but then was too lazy to travel.. how i wish i can apparate.. sorry goon.. went west mall for lumch then went city hall to meet e guys.. the male fireball, cool wh, sw n se.. erm.. kinda got there early so went up to walk walk first.. the whole place (city hall) so crowded la.. lots of ppl in red.. tot tt's e in colour.. turn out there's ndp preview then.. haiz.. shouldn't have worn red ydae.. makes me blend into the surroundin too well..

first stop at suntec was mac's.. bought fillet o fish n cheong for the hall.. not tt packed la.. managed to find a decent spot. the first 1.5h so borin la.. sat there stoning n sleepin.. too bad didn bring cards.. then sw was like lookin at the girl in white beside us.. i was too la.. but not as much as him.. decided to go dinner.. n saw tt girl n her gang again.. buying ban mian.. n there after called her the bmg.. lol

went back n the show became more interestin.. then JJ!! ah.. the whole hall became so high la.. took so much photos n video..

ah.. so shuang.. but at e end of the day was so dead loh.. better start tiking of something for my essay.. otherwise will get suan again..

F4

2005-07-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

was juz looking at the ATC photos!! ah.. brings back so much memories!! didn expect so much of our photos to be up there!! (visit http://www.ntuodac.com/atc/atc.php?option=photo n look out for ppl in red shorts!!) NJOAC u rock..

anyway back to F4.. not THAT F4.. but fantastc 4. Cheong to West mall to catch it.. was juz slightly late.. haha.. went with 3 other ppl.. the Fantastic 4?? nah.. no gals were there!! quite a nice show.. simple plot.. interesting dialogue.. cheeky ones in fact.. johnny storm is so cool!! n invisible girl is HOT!! H-O-T!! ya.. ok.. shall control myself..

felt sad for the thing.. brave guy.. really admire his courage.. learnt 2 new science experimental resuts:
-how rubber reacts at extreme low temp
-how superheated metal reactswhen cooled down rapidly..

Can't wait for X III. the poster is so cool!! got it on my phone lolx!!

Busy baboon...

2005-07-17T11:43:00.000+08:00

busy me.. common test.. interviews.. elections.. 45th annivesary.. bp ndp cumin up.. when will i get to have some free time for myself.. been sleepin in classes so much tt all e suaning by tt gp tutor has been "revived"..

tokin bt elections.. results were kinda expected.. 4 guys 4 gals.. seen them workin together. .much more dynamism.. enthusiasm.. a word of advice.. try to finish planning all the stuff within this few wks.. at least get an outline.. coz this few wks will be the slackest daysn the most enthu days!! anyway.. won't forget how elections went abt last year.. till now.. still feel tt i dui4 bo4 qi2 someone.. had i not stood up.. haiz.........

finally can take a break.. ydae was a v memorable day!! 401/03 outing.. n the 45th anniversary parade.. YEAh!! happi belated birthday bpghs!!

e parade wasn't up to standard.. worse than rehearsals.. the moment the GOH got in they forgot te give the stopping drumbeat.. in the end e GOH didn stop in step!! AHAHAHAH... horrors of horrors.. all our drills CMI!! dun wana tik bt it.. but feels good holding e sword.. lolx.. ku3 zhong1 zuo4 le4

then CHEONG (so typical of me now) to causeway to meet 401.. jack's place.. erm..nothing to sae.. everyone was waiting fer me.. so pai seh.. but feli was still eating!! said was waiting for me.. who believes.. lolx.. then went some park in woodlands.. BP spirit lives!! started taking photos (anticlimax)?? NAH!! had so much fun loh.. haha..so happy.. saw so manymany ppl.. even fer e first time..HQ!!! n he invited us to go to his home in some nearby country.. kk.. malaysia.. in dec!! wohoo.. free chalet again.. asked him if we can go to his plantation.. everyone laf.. yah.. his reply?? can.. but its 5 hectres!! wah... ok...

back to my busy life now!!

mugging in the lib SUX more...

2005-06-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

k.. i admit.. mugging out is not all tt good for me.. seriously.. can start to do work there.. but dun really learn much there.. 1 whole dae n my brain still can't do LA.. perhaps LA sux too.. (btw LA is a FM topic.. ya)

e JE lib is freaking cold... n i wore a SUPER thin shirt there.. in the end.. well.. let's juz say some one forgot to turn of the ta for my right nostril.. still leakin.. gotta get e plumber now...

mugging.. SUX

2005-06-18T18:52:00.000+08:00

been mugging for a wk.. mugmugmugmugmugmugmugmugmugmugmug.. yeah mug..

root beer?

can't leave my com.. no point mugging at home.. chat n mug at e same time?? i wish.. root beer rox!!

mugging at macs.. lots of ppl there.. they love mugging there.. wait a minute.. are they muggin or chicking?? seems more like chicking.. nah.. can't be bothered.. macs dun sell root beer anyway..

back to more mugging...........

monday blues..

2005-06-14T11:36:00.000+08:00

another busy day.. another late nite.. tat was ydae

went to belay the canoeist for their camp.. n it rained again.. so the thing got postponed.. ok.. n i found tt i can climb much better now than last year.. got some techniques now.. then had intra college ac briefing.. n everthing still went on smoothly.. lunch at kap n had further discussion..

18 00 met up with boss n chunlong at orchard for dinner.. then went to observe meet-the-people session somewhere "out of singapore".. holland close.. yah..

the last thing i wanted to do for the day is to run for a bus.. said tt to e 2 guys.. n guess wat.. ran for the bus i did..

all thanx to me.. we overshot the stop.. n wat did i say b4 tt.. the first thing i want to do when i get of the bus is to walk back 1 stop.. n 2 stops i got.. so we took a bus coz we were running late..
the bus.. 105 was worse than 67.. in terms of something.. ask me to noe wat's tt.. can't say.. siao..

first time at met-the-people session.. good experience.. late nite.. left the place at 11.30pm.. they had a meeting regarding upgrading stuff.. in the end we had to leave halfwaycoz we wanted to catch the last bus.. almost got lost.. took 970 n overshot again.. had to walk back 1 stop to take 190.. n reached home after mid nite.. haiz..

slept late n had a v nice dream.. haha..

ATC

2005-06-14T01:56:00.000+08:00

woke up to a great start for the race.. RAIN!! n we got to MR 2 hours before flag off.. yeah... thanx rain..

flag off.. everyone cheonged.. haha n i was in front.. for a while.. camara man took a photo of mi running (leading the pack).. then the cj ppl ran past.. WAT A JOKE... kept running n running till we all tired.. n we trekked.. thanx canvas shoes for giving me such a great massage.. then cycling.. first time cycling down slopes 60 degrees down n pushing bikes 60 degree up.. GREAT!!

on the way back to MR.. cramp.. which nv realli recovered.. the 2 thighs ah.. pia lots of deep heat.. burnt.. shuang.. yeah.. cramp.. pain.. then kayaked n abseiled.. n cramp.. completed the race in ard 4.5h.. quite good though..

Bernie.. thanx for being so brave.. for pushing urself so hard.. overcoming the pain.. n cheonging with us.. hope we didn tire u off.. hope ur injury get well soon.. btw.. dun stress urself coz of a race nxt time.. juz be sure tt u have good team mates.. lolx

Russell.. thanx for encouraging the team.. ur adventurous spirit.. n ur fitness.. w/o u leading while most of us are down.. we may ended slightly later..

Chok.. thanx for forming such a great team.. n kayaking with me.. n enduring the pain while cheonging with the team.. probably the last time we will race together.. all the best for ur As..

lazy..plainlazy

2005-06-08T11:23:00.000+08:00

i've come to terms with things.. i'm lazy.. noy busy.. lazy to blog i mean.. n lazy to do things.. to train.. haiz.. am i growing fat??

now to catch up with htings..

SAT went sentosa with OAC.. got roasted like a chicken.. too bad the skin is not crispy enuf.. played ball, cards, n ball again.. n swim!! so so v sad.. only 7 seniors.. n out of 3 are exco.. erm.. ok... maybe it's not the rite time.. n i'm still waiting for JTS. for the WHOLE OAC!! yeah! went pastamania at ps.. then went to but ROASTED CHICKEN.. haha.. 8 person to one small chicken.. could it have been a kampung chciken??

SUN atc briefing.. nothing interesting.. juz made me feel more nervous.. tik i will drag e team down.. suck at cycling.. at running.. at kayaking.. maybe it's another of my famous wrong choice.. dun wish to tik bt it..

TUES.. finally star wars.. well.. was stonin at first.. maybe didn sleep well last nite.. but still manage to get the story.. n found tt assie, avalene, mos r star wars idiot.. at least yk tried to get the story.. n jennifer , mj so enthu.. watch 4 e 2nd time.. YEAH.. after tt we PESEKED!! all the other ppl have come under the influence of the big pesek.. (studying metallic bonding currently).. stayed for 3h to support nj dance.. ok.. good... ah.. then home.. I WAS LATE FOR DINNER FOR 2.5H!! thanx...

recovering..

2005-06-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

BWM camp 05 have left a footprint in my heart.. nv tot it to be so successful.. n wat a great experience.. with the solo nite incident.. valuable lessons to learn too!! thanx all seniors who attended the camp.. chok, des, jon, wf, jas, shi lei, xp, lu, der, hengz, hui yang, kenny, mj, shaun, vince.. realli appreciate the effort u all put in.. haiz.. 3 more wks n we'll be leaving.. so sad..

solo nite.. mani ppl asked y was e search party sent out so late.. wld have to sae its my fault.. ms khoo told me to run to mammam beach to inform chok n wf to stop dispatchin.. but wasn't clear of wat happened so didn do it.. perhaps my mind switched off.. 1am u noe.. when i finally got to noe of it.. i started to run.. but ran the wrong dir.. *piak*.. ran in the opp dir till i found a map n saw tt i was running in the wrong dir.. 跑吧！孩子！n i CHEONG to the beach.. then ran.. yeah CHEONG back to murai hut.. ms chua sent out search party.. wanted to be in it.. but was told to stay.. haiz.. reason.. "as e pres.. i wan u here to sort things out n calm things down.."

30 may, 20 30.. the last campfire of my jc life.. e most memorable one.. got to sing THE SONG (tt chicken one) with the seniors guys.. haha.. 1st time sia.. then had all the usual campfire stuff.. n this time i wasn't bored.. then time for me to sae a few words.. when kenny told me tt (2 min b4 i was suppose to make my speech).. lots of things flashed past mi.. been only with theconfirmed batch of oacians for like 3 wks.. didn get to noe them enuf.. anyway was quite sad.. tikin of all the things all the seniors n juniors have done since last year..

Orientation camp 2004 (first time camping with aura)
nite hike 2004 (first time hiking at nite)
pioneering 2004 (first time building things from scratch)
orienteering 2004 (first ever cheonging experience)
AC 2004 (stoning at nite with pesek)
BWM camp 2004 (heck.. all the punishments.. hah and experience)
BWM dinner 2004 (gathering with seniors for the last time)
elections 2004 (quite complicated)
investiture cum senior's farewell 2004 (emotional, beginning of mi life as oac pres)
games fest 2004 (haha.. fun)
open day 2004 (first major activity planned)
senior's camp 2004 (commandant.. didn realli do gd job.. coz all from same batch mah..)
nite cycling 2004 (sweat like hell)
orientation camp 2005 (first time i c the j1s.. quite immature.. bleah)
nite hike 2005 (kena "detained" at ranger station)
AC 2005 (bonded with the new peseklings)
BWM 2005 (great experience.. good job pesek!!)
BWM outing 2005 (cuming soon)
elections 2005 (excited)
investiture cum senior's farewell 2005 (emotional. end of mi life as oac pres)

n suddenly i look at the camp fire.. n it all came together.. though the fire is dying.. signifying the end of our "reign".. it will be relighted v soon.. the beginning of another batch of seniors.. n the cyle repeats..

keep up the good job juniors.. bet u all will continue to enjoy life as an oacian.. YEAH!!

O FOR OAC!!

caughtup

2005-05-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

YEAH!! finally caught up with ms ng... erm.. in terms of math tutorials at chi (pronounce kai)-squared test.. have been lagging since wk 4.. haiz.. played too much.. sch's coming to an end.. only 3 more fm qn to end of tutorials this term.. three cheers to ME!!

went back bpncc this wk.. saw ade on the way there.. haha..will be meeting her more nxt month.. erm.. coz will be conducting parade.. n 1 big parade tt will be.. *excited* well jia you my cadets.. hope tt all goin spec course will pass out as 2nd sergeant.. haha

shit.. went to bp in nj u+shoes.. came home in nc u n boots.. hmmmmmm.. found my clothes.. but where's my shoes.. OH NO!! left them in nc room.. n no chance of getting back this term.. erm.. will have to go to sch with those smelly shoes.. (which stinks coz i stepped on someone's vomit once..).. hiaz.. on god.. shld habe bought new shoes when dad asked me to..

champs league final tonite.. shld i watch??

finally...

2005-05-21T20:14:00.000+08:00

finally... some time to blog.. too busy trying to catch up on my sleep.. so much so tt ms ng (math tutor) asked me wat happened to me in recent wks.. told her tt was spending time to catch up on my sleep.. which wasn't tt true.. now need to cheong my tutorials..

b4 tt.. something interesting to note.. something which happened during ac...

was walking from orchard back to sch.. walking walking.. damn tired.. shldn't have stayed up till 1 e previous nite to chat.. haiz... back to where i was.. walking walking... saw red lite.. stopped.. bend down to rest (actually sleep).. then jason poke me *poke* woke up.. looked ard.. NO RED LITE.. i juz started dreaming while walking with eyes half close!!

can anyone beat tt...

busyguy

2005-05-07T20:15:00.000+08:00

guess my previous post was a bit TOO serious.. dun blame me plz.. i was juz sayin wat i felt.. clash of interest.. yeah.. but no matter wat will wish all of the councillors all e best in their term..

OOWW.. my index finger is hurting.. n i'm still typin with it.. gues wld have to use my MIDDLE FINGER to type.. stupid me.. went to open da window n clipped my finger..

well.. finally got 2 c e t-shirt.. nice.. but a bit too thick.. n i observed a diff btw guys n gals when they buy stuff.. seems like e guys dun mind anything as long as it's nice n lasting.. e gals.. well.. they have more considerations.. like whether e material is worth e money.. whether the size will be rite.. how practical it is.. guess it's juz e way we think.. open for comments.. juz tryin to express mi tots..

went to look for bags with ying kang, des, wen foo.. nice.. n cheap.. tatonka is a good brand.. too bad we didn have e chance to but those bags.. too rush..

yah.. better get back to my work.. hiz.. guess my mug is callin me to use it.. haiz..

dunfeelsorrytowardsus

2005-05-02T15:57:00.000+08:00

1 more mth to bwm camp.. 2 more mths to elections.. 3 more mths and its all over.. 4 more mths and prelims will be near e corner.. so near.. yet so far.. soon the next batch will take over and the cycle repeats..

dun feel sorry towards us.. maybe not all 12 of u r.. but for those who r like jelly.. u all should be sorry for the nxt batch.. they r the ones who will continue organising the activities.. who will need your help.. we have been thru tt phase.. organising activities with juz 20 ppl.. tt's tough.. everyone put in 110% effort to cover up for the others.. (tt sounds v familiar.. are we all councillors then?).. k..

but fortunately.. there's more members dis year.. :-) juz hope they r committed.. well.. u all have made ur choice.. so i won't say much more..

...

2005-04-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

got up at 6.40am today.. had my first breakfast at 7.15am, 2nd breakfast at 9.30am, lumch at 4pm then went home. walked past fai star (kampong cheeken) cheeken rice n saw fai grp of councillors walk to BT hill.. wat a lum day i have today

btw.. found out a new type of juice drink.. lum juice.. or izzit lime juice??

toothache 3..

2005-04-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

turned out tat the ache in my tooth is not toothache.. was some other thing caused by e flu bug.. haiz.. ar least i noe tt i dun have to lose my tooth.. thnx hui lin..

bab.. have strong tooth.. healthy ones too.. n they r WHITE!!

toothache2

2005-04-24T21:58:00.000+08:00

tooth still aching.. but acc to dad it's not really a toothache.. it's due to the heatiness.. so need moree lame jokes to cool myself down..

wanted 2 go 2 e dentiSt juz now.. bUt CLEV3R me.. most d3ntist either rest on sun or wld require an app.. haiz.. guess e pain will remain for another day...

toothache

2005-04-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

went for recce today.. then went aud's house.. played ball n found out my skin is shedding.. yeah!! another new skin...

toothaching now.. so can't tok much.. tat's all for today..

neverperformstrenuousactivitywhenursick

2005-04-19T20:37:00.000+08:00

learnt a valuable lesson today.. never perform strenuous activity when u r sick.. n with tat i mean physical activity.. like NAPHA!!

haiz.. miss my target once again.. 10:58.. barely scrapped by.. but.. can't do much bt it.. shldn't have ran with e flu virus in me!! mayb things will be better if i have waited till i recovered.. anxious me.. but all's well.. at least didn get any C!! bloody tired now.. can't stand.. n is still v sick..

tired!!

burnt...

2005-04-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

got burnt on the neck n arms.. ah.. finally got a nice reddish brown color (no more tan dis time.. e joke is not funny anymore).. but still.. it's painful lah..

nyway.. have something funny to tell.. promised to do dis.. so sorry to e person concerned.. ydae at changi sea sports club.. picked up a clothing U while packing my bag for lunch.. tot it was mine n kept it in my bag.. allow me 2 have a break 2 laugh..

LOLX

went for lunch n continued kayaking.. wah!! it looked as if it was goin to rain n we went back to shore.. in the end it was sunny all e way.. hee.. tat's y we got all burnt!!

then we were given time to wash up.. some guy D said he forgot 2 bring his U n i joked with him, saying tt i will lend him my wet one.. 3 guesses on wat his reply is.. lolx.. it was then tt i found out e U wasn't mine.. n i suggested givin it to D to wear.. nv did i tik tt he will wan it.. lolx.. but.. he took it anyway.. seems like his desperate to feel SECURE!! nyway he said will throw it away once he reach home.. maybe it's not tt clean..

anyone wan to guess who D is?? n wat e U is?? but i won't tell u... keep guessing

sick..not of life.. lah

2005-04-15T18:30:00.000+08:00

well.. dis sick MAN finally can have enuf time to blog.. n to look at his new tan (black) skin.. *silence*

had medical check-up on wed.. haha.. got to pon sch.. was fun lah.. gotta pes a.. is tt juz good or bad.. though i suspect the doc is cock-eye.. high myopia n yet put me as pes a.. then tt other doc.. took twice e time 2 draw 4cm3 of blood.. n keep poking e needle deeper..AH... hate taking jabs.. n stupid doc said my blood is thick.. yah thicker than water

got back pw today.. yipee.. 111111111111111.. band 1.. kk didn expect tt.. tot will get 3.. coz of some battery loh.. neway.. bus broke down again while goin home.. had to get down.. luckily have jc beside me.. went to eat then go home. heehee..

haiz.. time 2 rest again.. tml still needa get up at 6 tml 2 get 2 tampines.. haiz.. then sun still have recce.. calculated.. will only have 2 rest days for the whole of april.. is tt my personal best.. YAH!!

busyme

2005-04-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

haiz.. will be working for 6 days per wk this month.. so tired.. really have no more energy to tik of things to blog.. haiz.. its time to slck again..

problemmanagement

2005-04-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

Problems. tat's what i live in. n tt's y i'm so tired...

Everyday i wake up 2 e same old problems tt's being bugging me since last august.. i go to sch, dreading tt more prob will surface.. it seems like there is no end to the creativeness of dis bunch of humanx who r out 2 make life difficult for everyone.. i wanna help.. really.. but it's either it's not appreciated, or ppl tik i'm of no use..

been collecting feedback since last aug.. lolx (sarcastic).. none of them is ever positive.. wat is dis world turning to.. i dunoe.. i dun care.. but it's my job.. n i cannot avoid it.. n tt's wat makes me tired.. i have my problems too.. but i dun even bother bt them.. everytime a new prob surface.. e zzz monster will wan to take its revenge on me in class.. haiz..

ydae, someone pointed out something.. tt ppl are being biased.. yeah.. tt's true.. n i tot bt it.. n i lost some sleep.. hope u ppl will treat everyone equally, n mean wat u ll said.. both sides are biased in some ways.. but wat can they do.. can only sae tt u all muz try to interact with more ppl n not concentrate on a particular grp only..

today, another prob.. for mths.. i've kept myself in check.. not wanting to create more prob for the club.. wanting to hold onto things.. i do not do things coz i'm obliged to.. i do things coz i'm interested in it.. nv have i gone down for any activity feeling tt i muz be there for show.. back to e prob.. there's no reason for u to blow up.. n sometimes i wish u do.. blow up.. literally.. if u feel something is not done rite. juz sae it.. no pt in walking off.. complicates things..

TIRED

.. tried walking away once, not forgetting to leave instructions for u all.. but somehow tt person did not convet e msg.. disappointed.. n i got accused.. now u are commiting e same crime.. wat do u wan me to say..

i feel weak.. sleepy.. dying.. but shld i quit.. it's juz a while more.. but looking at e state of things.. i noe i muz press on until victory is in sight..

saltwater(drain)

2005-04-10T14:34:00.000+08:00

too tired 2 blog last nite.. zzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZ

finally can ve some time to sleep.. still trying to recover from nite hike n marshal duty.. sorry jc.. too tired 2go swimming.. but still wish 2go some other dae..

kayaking in the BIG drain was nt tt fun.. bit boring actually.. did e 4 strokes n some rescue.. YUKS!! e water is disGUStinglY saltiSh.. hair is still sticky from tat course.. but at least got 2 tan myself again.. kk.. though not as tan as desmond who is less tan than the polar bear !!

luckily mi nt suffering from any effects of kayaking.. but really.. i need more practice on kayaking before goin to competition.. kk.. by nxt wk.. muzbe able to kayak in a straight line.. as in STRAIGHT!! otherwise i really tik i pajiao.. cannot let the team down again!!

still have so MUCH hw to catch up n so much prob unSolveD.. better get moving n start training.. napha in a wk's time.. GO xl.. GOLD

guidingprincipalsonrelationships(morethanfriendtype)

2005-04-07T21:53:00.000+08:00

1. nv tok bt relationships unless it's some ting u r sure bt..
- to avoid jumping 2 conclusions n giving oneself high hopes
- so tt u won't get distracted n miss out on the ONE
- so tt u won't regret making e decision

2. tokin 2 some1 u ve a crush on may be.. oh no .. have no word to discribe the feeling.. eH.. let's juz put it as "尴尬". to avoid dis.. juz take it easy..
- unless u make it so obvious, or have spoken to someone bt it, or u juz eXPEriencE E feeling StronGly.. everything shld be alright

3. it's worth waiting to find the rite person..
- well.. it's self explanatory..

ps. dis is a bit of cRaP.. but well.. the fist sentence is valid, weLl at lEaSt 4 mi...

relationships (friendship)

2005-04-06T23:17:00.000+08:00

relationships r fickle. 1 moment we r on gd terms n e nxt we r nt n e nxt we r.... n so e story continues..

ur attitude is everchanging.. u seem to care so much n yet u do not really.. are u here to wreck up things we have been working on.. or are u here to assist us?? it's good tt u helpED.. but it's useless if u dun continue working.. wat's more is u dun treat some friends as friends.. plz dun bully them.. put urself in their shoes.. dun tik u will like it if ppl treat u as a monkey.. who will only turn to u 4 entertainment.. ppl r nice 2 u coz tat's how they r.. so dun take things for granted plz..

n u shld oso learn to change for e sake of others too.. dun expect ppl 2 come 2 u when u need help if u dun change.. u may complain bt everything n give all sorts of excuses.. ppl may pity ur plight.. n may become close to u.. but if u dun put in hard work.. the friend will juz leave u 1 by 1..

hope u will tik bt it.. n to c u change

everythingisturningoutfine

2005-04-04T20:59:00.000+08:00

had our first meeting in years!!! nice.. can finally c the exco working together.. as long as we all can continue like this.. we will break all possible records............ ah tiking bt the activities coming up make me really excited.. will be doing lots of things 4 e 1st time.. lol.. but nothing is to be said.. wait till it is done ba..

wat the super seniors said is really quite true.. remember tat every grp wld ve their own probs.. we ve 2 overcome it ourselves.. maybe i shld start working now..

jc asked when we can go swim swim again.. haiz.. looking back, seems tat it is not tat possible tis wk.. SWIM!! i wan 2 get tanner, not redder.. seems like the reddish-ness has not really subsided.. wish it will go qucikly.. lolx!!

tiredlobster

2005-04-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

a tired lobster.. tat's wat i m now.. juz got back from a whole weekend of activities. but nevertheless, it was a once in a lifetime experience. nite hike was v successful all thanx to polar bear n bunny, the teachers n all seniors too.. was so glad to see the juniors so shag but can c tat they enjoyed it.. me too lah..

had a good chat with the super seniors too.. it was then tat i realized tat i was not exactly doing my job.. well there's only 4 mths left.. better CHEONG all the way so tat i will not regret it.. need to start geting the exco to WORK together.. n to be more committed.. only then will the seniors do a better job.. it's true.. the exco muz work well first b4 the other seniors can work.. WORK!!

was really happy the juniors stayed for breakfast.. EntHu u noe.. but the seniors.. HAIZ.. let me juz assume tat they are too tiredn w3nt bAck 2 ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz.... Sweet dreams tonite sia..

after today.. well, can c tat this current batch of juniors is as good as the one we had for my batch's first 3 mths.. full of life, en2siasm n commitment.. well tat b4 the council elections n jae.. HAIZ.. OAC you xi wang le.. OACJ let's go OAC.. lolx!!

a tired.. LobSt3r..............................zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

zz monster attacking soon.. better finish up.. stood under the sun for hours, then took a bloody long trip hoime.. =0 at least got to sleep.. tokin bt zzzz.. woke up at 6.30am ydae to attend sapphire meeting, went for lunch, hair cut n home.. then w/o resting went t nite hike.. then breakfast.. then home to bathe.. within 20 min was in my no 4 n travelling to indoor staT ion.. tat is station.. by the time i really went to BED..BED!! it's well.. v soon...

badday

2005-03-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

bAb.. nope, BAD, day..

EARTHQUAKE!!! that starts the whole day. though not affected, was still quite upset tat such natural disaster had befallen our neighbour again.
Stupid 67 broke down even before i started on its journey. Should have taken the previous bus. Made us wait for 15 min to get onto the next bus.. n there were so MANY red lights on the way there, almost every traffic light had to turn red when my bus arrived. tot wld be real late.. haha.. but luck was with me.. came juz in time for assembly. YEAH!!
First lesson of the day.. physics. there was suppose to be a staff meeting n the teacher is SUPPOSE to be late.. but guess wat.. Miss Yee made full use of the time n gave out the papers for us to check. the class wasn't really expecting the papers to be released so early.. haiz.. did badly for it. though it was better than some ppl... still quite disappointed bt the score.
More bad news.. release of the 2 math paper.. haiz. did below expectations. too many careless mistakes. XL.. wake up. stop dreaming in exam.. if this continues.. u shld noe the consequences.. u used to be so careful bt all things but y aren't u this time??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
is there anymore bad news to come.. yah. haiz.. our not v new store suffered a heart attack. all its "organs" pop out.. i mean the tiles buckled n i tik it's the result of the earthquake this morning.. wat r we suppose to do now??

Please.. let this bad luck end.. CAN??

howlatecan1get

2005-03-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

no sch today n i did no work... sianz... but still went to sch EARLY in the mornng coz des told me he will be there then. budden wat time did he arrive?? 10... 闲z diao again. make me wake up so early for nothing. so went to pack up the lashings in store.. n tat seems like, no, IS, a stupid decision. lashing lashings.. i can even smell it now.

slacked the whole day again at bytez then went to store to settle nite hike stuff.. too bad no more pub stunt. praying hard tat a lot of ppl will come for the hike.. praying. Anyway jason n esther really did a good job.. haiz.. wonder if our other activities can reach tat standard...

handed in another proposal late.. so sian.. wonder if things will be successful this time round. haiz..

nomoremosquioesatubin

2005-03-26T23:56:00.000+08:00

Back to the place where mosquitoes love me the most.. n prob sandflies. nothing feels better than being at home. Home!!4 mths past since i last stepped into this home of ours. n wat fun i had.. this si the most exciting day i have in m adopted home..

"This is the most successful outing we ever had!!" commented most seniors. My reply.. " This is the first time i organise an outing for everyone.." Tat's the spirit of an OACian.. 24 ppl went.. nv have i seen so many ppl go for an outing.. of course.. there would be lots more had some ppl not oversleep..

First stop.. changi village for brunch.. speakign of which makes me hungry again. then its the new jetty!!! erm.. its SLIGHTLY better than the old one.. SERIOUSLY!! at least there's a proper roof now.. n some metal detectors, a gate, lots of space, crowd control...

Ubin...
the place we visited.. nope.. its not the bike shop. Its the ...toilet!! k.. enough bt tat. bikes.. suppose to be 5 BUCKS.. somehow we paid $8 for them.. n someone forgot to pay.. haiz... before we have even cycled for an hour.. CRASh.. HAHA fell.. n almost 绝子绝孙.. lolx.. Chok said" nxt time i will bring a file to file off the stupid rock".. ok.. will love to c him do tat.. then comes the mambrane spray.. first time cing it.. nv tot it wld have such effect.. even on such a tough guy like HAHA..

actually i remembered the trip more for the injuries n not the journey.. 2 ppl fell n hurt their chin, hui lin found a twin for her knee.. n the most comical award will surely go to hengz.. for falling down from the bike juz when des n jo were saying tat there's a new injury.. wat's more.. he had to fall in the middle of a downslope, sideways, with his right shoulder n the floor.. in the end he scratched his arm, n his shirt tore.

otherwise, it was smooth sailing.. revisited everyplace i went before.. though didn get to c my relatives.. was made to hang on the branch.. but some ppl juz could not bear to watch..

n another thing to note.. joanne still dunoe wat the 2 no signifies.. hope her bro will educate her..